of yellow jellyfish and crayons

The one who's constantly waiting

2012-01-04T10:14:00.001+08:00

It has been months since he has spent quality time with me. And when finally we have this weeee bit of free time, I was dragged along to accompany his friends, watched the shows he promised to watch with me alone at night, left stranded at home for days.

I'm so jealous of the couples out there, dating and all. N my boyfriend, busy with app, busy with sleeping, busy with alcohol, busy with clubs, BUSY WITH EVERYONE BUT ME.

And great! There is no more next weeee bit of free time.

Now I have financial aid forms, michigan's supplement, and SAT examinations in January. Then I'll start working in February, a full time job. What's best? He's leaving for u.s in mid jan and coming back in early feb.

Shits like this has been happening since we got together. First trials, then finals, then he'd got some work, then internships, then SATs, then applications, NOW THIS. and my mum always questions me where he is and why I rarely go dating.

So much for being in a relationship.

Sucks.

I will not be the one who waits anymore. I have enough.

Breaking down

2012-01-01T07:57:00.001+08:00

I can't break down now.. If I did.. He would too..

But I'm so tired...

Celebrating Xmas w laptop

2011-12-25T12:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry for MIA-ing for such a long long time. Was really busy with applications lol.

I thought I would be super free from January onwards, but I'll have to retake my SAT D: and this time in Switzerland WTF?!

I have 3 more days to finish up my applications before flying to Thailand ): but I haven't even done my common app essay ): nt to mention my supplement essays.

Anyways. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY! Opened your presents yet? :D

I wish I'd be able to celebrate it with him next year.. No matter where we go..

THOMAS SABO 8) didn't know I'd get it this year heheheh!

Rejection

2011-12-04T09:46:00.001+08:00

I feel so horrible about myself...

Btw cy, congratulations on the interview (: knew you would get it.

Comfort

2011-11-25T00:31:00.001+08:00

The more torn it is, the more precious it is, especially pajamas. New pajamas can never compete w the old ones.

It's just like people. The longer you know a person, the more comfortable you are around them. I guess it's just me, being 念旧.

Seventeen

2011-11-20T20:07:00.001+08:00

We're on magazine!! :D

la-gypsies.blogspot.com/

2011-11-17T21:17:00.001+08:00

My blogshop! :D

http://la-gypsies.blogspot.com/

Help me spread the words! :D Or even better, be my customer. 8)

I will annoy all of you everyday about my blogshop heheh!

Heartbroken

2011-11-04T13:07:00.001+08:00

I hate myself to the max. I accidentally deleted the all the msgs between us ): wanted to delete my sister's msg, but my dad's msg came in, and iPhone detected the delete button beside your name n deleted the whole file.

Memories ):

Nvm, we shall create new ones and the old ones will always stay in our hearts.

Where are you?

SAT

2011-11-04T10:14:00.001+08:00

Relaxing before dooms day at universal studio :D

I miss you. Come soon ):

Another argument

2011-10-27T12:21:00.001+08:00

Seriously. Men want their girls to look flawless, and they refrain them from doing for plastic surgery.

PLASTIC SURGERY IS NOT FOR FAKE PEOPLE. It helps people who think that appearance is the central of life to feel more confident about themselves. What a stereotype you are if you think whoever goes for plastic surgery have fake personality. YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO JUDGE THEM THAT WAY.

When a girl is ugly, you don't even bother knowing her more and you jump to a conclusion that she has horrible personality. When a guy is not, you choose to know more about her personally then only you make a conclusion.

Or worse as long as she has big boobs and innocent face, "Omg she's such an angel!". Now who's the swallow ones?

All men are shallow and you can't bloody deny that fact. If they werent I'd gladly tell you that all beauty salons are going to face bankruptcy. Why do we always want to look good? BECAUSE YOU MEN ARE FREAKING SHALLOW.

If men worth nothing at all, all women in this Earth would be fat and ugly, not caring a single thing about appearance, no broken hearts, no disappointments, and we wouldnt need love to compensate for the last love that broke us apart.

Urgh, even 15 minutes of car journey led to an argument, a stupid one.

Commitment

2011-10-24T13:13:00.001+08:00

Ever think of the alternate possibilities in life if you never had a boyfriend? Well, after the big question, I do. In a relationship, I'm usually committed enough to take him as my life partner, maintaining the relationship with the ultimate goal "marriage" in my heart. But now I'm reconsidering, should I continue to do so?There is not much point after all if I'm the only one who thinks that way. I might scare him off, putting pressure on the both of us, and eventually, on the relationship itself. When I proposed the idea of going with the flow and let things work themselves out - if things go well, it works out; if it doesn't, too bad - I hurt the both of us. We felt less pressured, but everything changed, the strong feeling I used to feel for him faded when he agreed to it. I stopped taking him as a life partner, but also I slowly found no reason in trying so hard to maintain the relationship. It felt s weird inside my heart, like something was ripped off, something was missing, it felt like I lost something irreplaceable. Of course there is no way that I'd know how he felt. At that moment, I felt like promises and honesty weren't as important as before. I was letting things go on it's own.In the end, he proposed to stay the way we were before, fighting to get into the same school, without having much thoughts about afterwards. I acceded to his proposal and well, let's see how things would turn out next year April. Remember my proposal of letting things happen naturally? He proposed that beforehand and I cried for being such a lonely crap in my journey. And when he finally thought the same as me, I freaked out and started to be unsure of commitment, and proposed such idea lol. I'm such a bitch :P I miss the way we were...

Treasure

2011-10-21T00:31:00.001+08:00

Mum was cleaning her room just now and found me an old sling bag lol. It looks kinda vintage and I like it. I think it's older than me lol. (:

The only flaw I found is that the buckle and all are not in gold, but silver. ): oh well at least it looks vintage! can't be picky when you have money (:

It's squarish!

The buckle ):

Why silver D':

overall (:

Hopefully no one observes the details lo when I bring it out. Oh well, another treasure in my house heheh.

Doubts

2011-10-18T16:34:00.001+08:00

"How far do you think our relationship would go?"

Good question.

It really makes me wonder if true love actually exists. Perhaps, there is no such thing called life partner. People change, feelings change, nothing is ever going to stay the same.

There are only 2 ways out in a relationship, get married, or break up eventually.

Does love last forever? Really, will it?

Unqualified

2011-10-13T16:40:00.001+08:00

Yes. I applied 5 schools last year and all I got was Manchester.

Yes. I didn't receive any offer like ucla or ucl like you did.

Yes. My essay writing skills suck. I needed to rewrite my personal statement so many times, unlike you who passed the 1st time.

Yes. I am not eligible for good schools at all. My parents can hardly afford my studies in the states.

Yes. All I have are my results. I don't have so called leadership quality in me, I don't have so called talent in me. I don't have so called money.

I shouldn't take a gap year at all. What was I even thinking? I'll just finish up the tests I signed up for and enter some local university for life's sake. I'll just, stay here and do what my parents want me to do.

You were right. Thanks for making it so clear for me. I found my path.

Fair?

2011-10-08T17:06:00.001+08:00

Parents, they always claim to be fair. CLAIM.

I know she's your favourite child. But at least, don't make it so freakingly obvious in front of me. And you ask me why I rarely stay at home. Ask yourself.

Even when I achieved so much in exams, what do I eff-ing get from you? And when she passes, woah she gets to have everything in the world.

And you question why I wanna get outta here so desperately.

College

2011-10-08T15:32:00.001+08:00

At forever 21 looking at girls trying on prom dresses.

Prom, it sounds so distant to me now ): bitches, I miss rushing to a store to find the perfect dress with you guys.

Little pieces

2011-10-04T11:04:00.001+08:00

I feel so left behind ):

By the time I start my university life, most people of my age will be in their 2nd year, some will be in their 3rd, even final year wth.

Now, I don't know if my parents liked him. They show positive signs in front of me but secretly they complain to my sister for having a boyfriend at such a young age. ):

Mum woke me up this morning and yelled at me about her credit card bill, she blamed it on apple store wth? I changed the information and bla bla bla, then she called me again and said it was because the other stuffs she bought recently ==

I miss being busy and having to run errands everyday. I miss going on trips. I miss having fun with bitches. I miss him.

Oh God.

Time to study sat!

Awkwardness

2011-10-03T00:15:00.001+08:00

Dad was angry because I've been so busy lately that I don't have the time to eat at home.

He never buys my reasons, though all of them were truth.

Annoyed. He always told me to work hard for my goal, my dreams. And now I'm doing all I can to get closer to my dreams. Can't he at least give me an encouragement and be supportive for once in my life?

Aiks, I miss college... I miss those crazy bitches ):

C&c finale

2011-10-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

At least I got a free badge? And some cleanser, some nail polish and free lunch?

Feel a bit ):

Thanks for being so supportive people! (: the cotinga and all! Really!

Especially you <3

Challenged accepted

2011-09-29T20:44:00.001+08:00

"fold this here, then fold this there, then flip over, insert your finger to pull the corner out, fold a zig-zag, ..."

WTF FROG ORIGAMI?!

How is a 6-year-old kid gonna do this? Even a 19-year-old has a problem with this.

My 1st frog origami after several attempts. Omg I hate this.

1st day of the 8th month

2011-09-29T11:13:00.001+08:00

Been pretty busy these days. And now that suddenly I'm out of things to do, :/ scary. Feel so unproductive at home ): I miss going to college.

7 months seemed to pass so fast! Can't believe that we've gone through so much together in such a short time.

Happy 1st day of 8th month! ;) still going on strong.

The ugliest couples ever :P

lavis vida

2011-09-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

I need you now.

Personal statement

2011-09-21T01:56:00.001+08:00

Best friend, supporter, pillow, clown, punching bag, napkin, tissue, ATM machine, free labour, maid, driver, and a lover.

<3

Before the worst

2011-09-18T14:37:00.001+08:00

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin City on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought would never hurt.
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are you hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we used to, just like we used to

Let's take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Disappointments. Fear. Uncertainties. All these emotions are flooding in right now, I have no escape.

Miao

2011-09-17T18:50:00.001+08:00

Since you're leaving tomorrow, I shall dedicate a post for you. Feel lucky. This shall be your one and only post on my blog. :P

UK is gonna be freezing cold. I'd really love to see a frozen cat with terrible grooming :P so update your life on Facebook or blog with your horrible photos to show us your terrible face.

I am going to be nice to you this time. Appreciate it.

I'll miss treating you like a pile of shit a lot. So get your ass back in Malaysia during winter. Let's go somewhere with sunshine and rainbow when you're back.

And remember the crab&cicak, cat&mouse, bear&egg, witch&bighead living in the same neighborhood idea!

Hopefully you become some black cat after coming back from Brighton!

I don't think I'll be able to send you off tomorrow. :| I'm still stuck in Cameron highland and I'll only reach subang around 8pm or later. You la, bought the wrong flight. )<

My soul will be with you. 8) if I ever chose to go uk, I'd continue zha-ing you in uk till eternity bwahahaha.

Take care Miao.

(: you've been such a great pet.

Never

2011-09-11T19:24:00.001+08:00

My parents never supported any of the choices I made for myself.

Never.

I'm not going to do what they want me to. No more. It's my life and I'm going to make my own choices.

Can't they just support me and stop saying things that hurt me?

choices

2011-09-02T14:09:00.001+08:00

I just went missing again. Aiks.

Everyone is starting their university life this September, some the coming January. I have to admit, I envy them a lot.

But come to think of it, it isn't a bad choice taking a year off to rethink all my options and choices. My parents aren't against it either. So I guess it'll do me some good. Plus I know I'm not alone. (:

It keeps me wonder what if I never met him. I'd be doing twinning programme as my parents wish. I wouldn't even be bother taking the chance to get into my dream schools. I would just do anything that pleases my parents. And I'd end up complaining to myself that I didn't make enough effort to get what I want.

It feels like it was all destined. I'm rethinking about my life paths and choices. And I realized I really do not want to go for any twinning programme. I really want to chase after my far-fetched dreams. I might stumble along my way, fall a few times and get hurt. I might get demotivated in the journey, wanting to give up at times. But I know if I tried, I would have no regrets.

The future is so full of uncertainties. Thinking about it hurts. The fear of losing the person who is the dearest to you kills. Sometimes, when you're at the edge of happiness, you start to fear if God would take this all away. You'll start thinking if you deserve all these smiles. You'll start wondering what you'd do if someone takes all these away. And you end up at the corner, thinking of the unforeseen future.

Life is full of surprises. Most of the time you wonder if the choices you made are the best for you. You doubt yourself. But all the choices we made in the past define who we are now. Thinking about the "what if", the "should have", "shouldn't have", doesn't help you in any way.

Oh god I got so emo after reading the crab's blog.

But I admit, I do sometimes regret the choices I made in the past. All those choices led me to him, to who I am today. If I were given one more chance to change my past, I wouldn't change anything. If I did, I wouldnt have met him. And I certainly wouldn't be choosing what I chose.

Good luck people. :) to those who are leaving to uk, especially Miao n Mel. All the best in surviving the cold winter! I shall post some sunny day photos when you guys are gone to share some warmth with you. 8) Zanny, stop being an emo crab.

Cy, thanks. (: for everything.

:|

2011-08-22T11:38:00.001+08:00

Yada. I'm re-watching how I met your mother season 1 on star world.

I'm bored. :|

I have so much to do on my to-do list but I'm just sitting here slacking off.

I need a life.

annoyed

2011-08-17T16:05:00.001+08:00

Can you not pass me the phone after you call someone? You call that fella, not me. If I have something to tell that fella, I would call him/her on my own.

Don't just bloody push and pass the phone to me and expect me to talk to that fella when I clearly have nothing to say and do not want to.

)< I am annoyed. Rawr!

My boyfriend ignored my msg ):

I'm coming back!

2011-08-16T10:39:00.001+08:00

Hm.

Oh yes I'm pretty much alive. I finished my attachment in a law firm and now I'm working on GG projects.

And study SAT whenever I remember to.

A Levels has finally come to an end after the results was released last week. I am proud of myself and him. Knowing that I didn't prepare enough and screwing up some easy questions, I guess this isn't that bad. Though I really need an A* for my math in order to enter LSE.

): oh well I guess God's telling me that I belong to the united states.

It kinda sucks when people at your age are busy preparing to go overseas this month or next, while you're stuck here reapplying all the universities, worse you might have to stay back and do a twinning program.

:|

I miss college. ): and I miss going to school. At least I had a purpose everyday, unlike now.

We had an argument the other day. Still, I said stuffs that I knew I'd regret and spitted venom on him. I over reacted and sorta let my temper go wild again. Still feel pretty bad about it.

I miss the girls. ):
Zanny's gone to Australia, seldom visits kl.
Eva's leaving to uk soon.
Melissa too.

Ah dang I'm left behind. Should have really gone for the audition for Ms Malaysia. Not like I stand a chance with my height, but why not right? If I ever got in I'd have more things to do right now during my gap year.

I hate this blogging app on my phone. I always fail to upload my photos.

Just a random note. I still love Miley cyrus's The Climb. Such an inspiring song.

:D stay tuned.

突然明白

2011-06-27T13:27:00.001+08:00

不要对他太过依赖
也不要有期望
不然就会从蹈复辙
伤害更大
迷失自己

人，还是需要坚强地活下去
独立自主，不需要依赖别人
就算没有人爱你
你也要学会更爱你自己
更在乎自己更疼爱自己
不要糟蹋自己
如果自己也不珍惜自己
没有人会珍惜你
你只会变成一只可怜虫

something about love

2011-06-16T21:59:00.001+08:00

I feel super anti-social. ):

The only ones I hang out with nowadays are only him and my sister. My bestie has her own boyfriend to mind, another bestie has his own girl to chase after, friends all busy with family and other friends,

:| I feel really pathetic. Like I have no friends at all. Aiks.

omg that stench. rocky needs a bath. zzz.

sanity

2011-06-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

The kind of butterflies you get when you browse through all his embarrassing photos and videos
Looking at his embarrassing moments of life
And you just feel like saying
"Yea, that's my guy."

<3

I am so bored at home that my mind is going insane! I need a new purpose in life.

an official goodbye

2011-06-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Prom was great! I was worried that everything would turn out nasty but hey, it was better than the prom I had during my high school. At least this time I took photos. :X

All the photos are on facebook by the way. It's gonna be really toublesome to post all of them up here. I don't have a very good internet connection.

Zanny, Eva and I spent almost the entire day dressing up. Hair, make-ups, dress adjustment, everything done in around 5 hours. @@ My mum helped us a lot, A LOT. I haven't really thanked her properly yet. :|

SPOT MEH!

Ah, for once we all look so lengzai lenglui :D

break down

2011-06-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

It was a happy day. I bought my prom dress and shopped a little. Until I went home, my parents kept commenting and telling me how ugly that dress was and how I look like an indonesian.

You know what? Everything was ruined.

I was excited about prom. And now, I dont even want to go. I'm gonna look ugly in any single dress that I like anyway.

And what sucks most? You had noone to talk to when you felt like shit.

Thanks dad, thanks mum, you totally made my day.

the lack of confidence

2011-06-06T11:03:00.001+08:00

It only takes one person to tell you that it all doesn't matter
To affirm you that no one's perfect
To catch you right before you fall deeper into the black hole of depression
To hold you right in place
To tell you that you're beautiful
And mean it

Yes Mel, cheese :p

I will do whatever it takes to keep us together

2011-06-04T11:21:00.001+08:00

Oh my God can you freaking believe it?!

A2 is finally...

OVER!!

I am super super excited!! Prom, upcoming trips, waking up late, sleeping whenever I want to, movies, shopping, dating, hanging out, sleepover, so so so so much more!!!

At least I have a month before my internship begins. :|

Now I'm on my way to Thailand for a few days vacation. No internet D: hopefully they have wifi there.

late at night

2011-05-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

ZOMFGWTF pimples!!!???

ffffffuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

D<

staying up late almost every night to study. never had the motivation to study in the afternoon. :| staying at home is not productive. i need to go college tomorrow. if this continues, i'll drown in pimple juice.

trust?

2011-05-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

Ahh biology. :| wasted the past few days doing nothing. now I'm doing some past year papers, trying to make myself feel less guilty.

God damn it, i wanna watch Pirates of the Caribbean. ):

He's out with his friends. I guess i'd never know where he heads to and all. Bahh.

I need to believe in myself a little bit more. I need to learn to trust. I need to, stop being an insecure bitch and start to have faith. And most of all, I need to finish up my past year papers before i step my foot into the exam hall.

The stress is killing me.

a little confession

2011-05-25T18:13:00.001+08:00

I am giving you all my heart and soul. Please love me back. I swear to God, I will live for you till the day you don't need me anymore. I have never been so humble in my 18 and half years of life before. So please accept my love and love me the way I love you.

If thou wilt not, i would rather die without thy love.

I will love you till the day you stop loving me, until the day we both decide to put this piece of memory to the past.

I will love you with all I have even when we only have a week left together.

Oh biology, feel my love!!!

insecurity

2011-05-21T18:52:00.001+08:00

It's the stress I guess, and I'm letting it affect my mood for every single thing, and now worse, questioning him and us.

Three more papers to go, any longer I might go crazy.

I screwed up maths. At this rate, I'm not even sure if I'm eligible for a gap year.

Because what matters is just you and me

2011-04-13T19:28:00.001+08:00

Bought myself a new purse today from bonia. Mum gave me her old gucci purse. Didn't like it. :| since I have limited allowance and money, I opted for the cheaper and wiser choice. I kinda change my purse quite frequently XD

Told my mum about him today. I wonder where I gathered that much courage. Good. My dad's coming home soon and now I have to tell him also.

Gahh, I feel sick just thinking how to get those words out.

How D:

Heheh. This photo looks super emo eh. Heheheheheh!

When you hurt someone so badly, you don't deserve the rights to be treated nicely. You know what you did was wrong and there's nothing you can do to make it right again. You made a choice, one that goes against morality. You don't deserve forgiveness, you cant even forgive yourself.

I am so thankful that all my close friends are so understanding,
Thankful that I was forgiven and still being treated as a friend,
Thankful that I was given a chance to mend this friendship,
Thankful that he never regretted going through all these with me,
Thankful that he's willing to be there for me.

Ahh, I'm truly blessed. (:

I am so worried of what my dad would say later. ): I already know what he would say and all. Im thinking the right things to say so that i would sound less childish.

Oh god please help me through this.

Boredom

2011-04-11T15:18:00.001+08:00

I feel so socially inert now ): waking up late, staying at home alone, watching random tv shows, lying on the couch texting him, I am so bored. ):

Spent the weekends with my bitchy bestie. Had a stayover with her, shopped, yam cha late at night with our men, crashed his house on Sunday. Ahhh, I miss your company woman.

Aiks, mel meow crab, bila nak pergi prom shopping ni?

better than the movies

2011-03-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

Tease & the Hoe gives me hope.

(:

it'll all worth the wait

2011-03-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

My vocabulary is so poor that I have to keep googling when talking to Jeck. =.=

1. Remnants
2. Capiche
3. Comprende
4. Decapitate
5. Ludicrous
6. Incongruity
7. Absurb
8. Absurd

2 and 3 are informal words by the way. Gahh. At this rate I don't think I can even achieve a 6 for my IELTS. The thing about checking definition of words is that, they lead you to checking even more words because they use words that you don't see often in defining the words. And in the end when you got all your definitions, the explanation for the 1st word you searched for doesn't make sense anymore.

Grrr.

In stead of spending time on working out maths questions, i spent my time on googling words. GOOD.

猪八戒&猪肠

2011-03-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

Found an awesome blog over the weekends. :D Happy Monsters ftw!

I absolutely adore her doodles. I wish I could draw something like that too. ): Too bad I'm not creative enough to do so. Photoshop and I just don't get along well. Aiks.

"It's about how well you understand why you're waiting."
I guess this is what keeps people who are in LDR in faith. (:

I'm such a nerd nowadays, to the extend that I don't even understand my own nonsense. D: Ah, the stress.

): I need to shop.

it's a shitty love x]

2011-03-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

LGMH.

believe in us, faith moves mountains (:

2011-03-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

Here I am, waiting for my hair to dry while putting on some random face mask I bought in Korea.

Woke up late today. Hurried to college. Parked super far away from college. Walked all the way up to 4th floor only to realise I left my labcoat in my car. Went all the way back to my car for it.

GOOD.

He gave me a surprise today, again. And this time, I didn't see it coming. x]

if only

2011-03-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

I feel damn crazy now. x]
I feel like jumping around and laughing out loud.
I feel like dancing and singing.
I feel like shouting and scaring everyone around me.
I feel like screaming out loud and make funny faces.
Teeheeheeheeheehee!!!

Yes, I am very sure that I didn't take coffee. @@ At the same time, I feel angry, frustrated and lost. I feel so torn apart now. ): I'm not even ready to let go yet... It's just the beginning and I already know that I'll have to let go after 4 months...

): Life is so not fair...

I feel so dramatic. I was watching the news today, about the earthquake in Japan. I teared wth. I felt sorry for them but heck, I cried. I cried watching the news, I cried reading the news. == I feel like a drama queen.

You and I,

it's like a perfect fit.

~~And soon enough, this will all become a distant dream....~~

jeez...

2011-03-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

no matter how many people told me it's okay to be tanned

i still hate being tanned

urgh,

因为我在等待永远

2011-03-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

说不上为什么　我变得很主动
若爱上一个人　什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣佈　对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风　在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手　一阵莫名感动
我想带你　回我的外婆家
一起看着日落　一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我　想带你骑单车
我　想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧　唱着歌　一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你　靠着我的肩膀
你　在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活　我爱你　你爱我

We went to watch Rango today. :D I dislike the ending a lot. Doesn't make much sense to me. == And the rattlesnake in the movie gave me so much chills that even now I'm feeling them.

D<

Look at the bright side! At least my phobia's not that serious anymore. Still strong, but better.

Ended up spending on a top we saw in Forever 21. Great. What happened to saving money? ):

Had sushi at Sushi Zanami today. I was officially crowned as the Queen of Retards today. I was searching the perfect candidate for my king. I pointed at this waiter and said "I think he's not bad lar.". He turned back and thanked me LOL. Was quite embarrassed but hey, at least I made someone's day better today.

Walked around in Pyramid and complained about every single thing that came into my mind, from manga and anime to clothes and brands. xD

Came home, fell asleep for 2 hours.

What happened to my nerd mode D:

because i'd like to believe that this would last

2011-03-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

I miss my pink rose.

But it died.

And my daisy.

BUT IT'S OKAY.

I've red roses now!!! :D A dozen of them! Teeheeeee. I likeeeee!

I only took photos of the roses after a few days I received it.

They're kinda dying now but it seems like they're

dying slower compared to the pink rose I had.

This bear seriously kept reminding me of SIONGREN.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i laughed like mad when i saw it and

made the person who gave me the flowers

quite some embarrassment.

._.

Ops.

I finally put them into a vase today.

But they are still dying.

i want more roses.

I went to see my hubby yesterday. x]

I got my ticket a week ago from Speedy.

If it weren't because of Kenny,

I wouldn't even know they were still selling the tickets.

And that's me waiting anxiously for the concert to start.

*drools*

Love the concert.

I think I'm love drunk. x]

the 28th of february :D

2011-03-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

HOR HOR HOR. This is what happens when you challenge yap carl mann to unfriend you. :P

PATHETIC.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

see the beauty in ugly

2011-02-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

I've gotten my conditional offer,
I've gotten the way I want things to go,
I've gotten my Jay Chou's concert ticket,
I basically have no reason to be sad now,
But yet
I'm not happy.

monday blues

2011-02-21T07:54:00.000+08:00

College kaki came over for sleepover the last weekends. :D I'll blog about it maybe later. I don't have to photos and all.

*emo mode: on*
I spent my whole Sunday rolling around on my bed, listening to sad love songs, on the phone with people, trying to sort things out. Basically, I did no progress on my revision the weekends and ended up feeling bad about it.

A few people asked me out yesterday for some fresh air. I rejected. Woah, I rejected invites to get out of the house. My parents start complaining that I spend too much time locking myself in my own room, talking on the phone, texting, going online, revising. But hey, I just want to make myself feel better as noone in my family will ever understand what I'm going through now. They might even screw me up for the mess I created.

It hurts so bad that i want to bite him and show him how it actually hurts inside. Urgh.

I just want to be selfish for once... Follow my heart and my feelings... Do whatever that is not going to put me in this pain... Afterall, I only have less than half a year left, don't I?

It really feels like you've found another copy of yourself. Both of you have so much in common that he is like the male version of you. But you found him at the wrong time, the wrong place. Maybe he's not the right one. Maybe, he's just another close friend in your life. Or maybe... You keep telling yourself all the maybe's and end up not coming up with any conclusion.

Urgh, I hate being so indecisive.

I hurt someone who loved me dearly... And I have no idea how to repent for it...
*emo mode: off*

(: it's just another ordinary day that I have to go through smiling.

because we'll never last

2011-02-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

Is it plain pressure, emoness or just mood swing? I'm very sure that it's not PMS. ==

I'm just not in the mood for anything today. Not into studying, not into revising, not into having fun, not into talking, not into playing, not into anything.

Maybe, I just need some sleep.

And my rose is dying. D:

popping eyes

2011-02-17T00:04:00.001+08:00

Yes,

thanks for your blessings my rose

is still alive.

Jackson committed a crime. D: He ran out of money the weekends and he put a plastic bag over his head, and robbed the bank.

Zzz. Woah, I was dumb enough to believe the made-up story until the part "robbed the bank". Zzz. I actually thought he was lebih enough to withdraw money with a plastic bag on his head.

My 1st Tommy Hilfiger.

It came all the way from United States and

found out that even S size was too big for me.

Zzzz.

Had to give it to my mum.

It's so frustrating when you got the shirt you wanted, you were so excited and you reached home, found out that the shirt was too large for you. The disappointment. ):

Oh well, I got my lipbalms. :D

Smith's Rosebud Salve.

From what I heard,

it was very hard to find in California.

Opps.

Maths presentation was bad. ):

At least I managed to get this pink pen!

I wanted the Donald's one but

I'm too reluctant to not choose pink.

._.

And only a smartie like me thought Shaolin was the Airbender movie.

Zzzz.

I wonder if

it's ever going to blossom.

I so wish that it will.

Somehow,

I think Daisy looks prettier than a rose.

My eyes hurt. ): They feel like they're popping out anytime soon.

放手，还有你这个好友，已经足够了

2011-02-15T23:07:00.001+08:00

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然后就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够


遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

Happy Valentine's Day!!

2011-02-14T22:13:00.001+08:00

Rose and daisy!!

Smell so good.

Never thought that I'd actually receive something this year. Especially flowers. XD

It's like, I hate flowers. I don't like flowers, at all. But the feeling when you receive flowers, incredible. It's like shy and embarrassing, happy and proud at the same time. x]

Pretty box.

Guess what's inside.

A cupcake!!!!

Wheeeeeeeeeee!

I had a minor accident today. D:

I feel so miserable. I crashed into a BMW 5 series. #%#YRE*#YXO#^%*$#^%#W%

THANK GOD that there was no damage to the car at all. But my bumper went a bit, cacat. =| I could feel my tyre rubbing against the bumper when I drove.

Boo. I don't like driving.

This is my 1st time having a fella

confessing to me on Valentine's Day.

Well, it feels kinda great.

nerd mode: ON

sleepless night

2011-02-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

For once, I'm not fighting for myself.
I am at fault.
Everyone knows that.
Even though some of my friends
are being really supportive and all,
but they all know that i'm at fault.
It feels like
I'm letting someone stab me over and over again
and I just stand there and feel the pain
without doing anything about it.
I'm not fighting back.
Because I know
these words are necessary for one to move on
necessary for one to hate me to the core
necessary for one to tear me out of his heart.
I'm not worth it.
I became this unfaithful bitch filled with lies.
Woah.
Should I cry? or scream?
Should I be happy? or sad?
Should I be angry? or just ignore it?

Carl Mann, I guess you over estimated yourself.
You thought you would never fall for another when you already have one.
You thought you were strong enough to stand on your own feelings.
You were wrong.
Someday a guy will just walk out of your life for another girl.
It's karma.

you're the straw to my berry

2011-02-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

My 1st glasses.

ehehehehe.

NERD MODE ON.

After 14 hours of dreadful bus trip, I'M FINALLY HOME.

YAY!!! I'm excited about tomorrow's futsal. x]

every word feels like a shooting star

2011-02-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

Quite spacious.

But my sister and I have to share a single bed,

while my brother can have 1 for himself.

I KNOW RIGHT.

I'm currently in Penang, after 9 hours of dreadful bus trip. Went out and walked around the hotel to look for my supper. My hotel's in George Town. =/ No beach, no coconut trees, no hot beach boys, NOTHING. I can only hear the clubs while I'm trying to fall asleep.

I feel sad all the time when I can't find anything in common to talk with my grandparents. ): Maybe this is what happens when you only see them at most 10 times in a year.

Ah, angpaus. x] I'm so going to use my money wisely for my prom. Teeheee.

There's always one thing at home that I always miss when I go on a trip.

HAIR DRYER

D':

get out of my head, please...

2011-02-03T21:49:00.001+08:00

I almost forgot that I was going Penang tomorrow. Zzz. Aiks, I still haven't packed. since I promised to find retarded Carlmann back, i shall keep my promise and try to be as optimistic as I can, but it somehow leads me into hoping for the impossibilities again... haihz... yes I'm trying very hard, harder than usual to get you out of my mind. I wish I could get all drunk again, maybe I'd be happier, maybe I could get you out of my head, maybe I would stop wishing, maybe I could finally realized the fact that I can never have you to hold me in place when I fall apart, maybe I could finally let go of this feeling inside. or maybe, you'd be there to take care of me. maybe, what you said were all my delusions...

曖昧讓人受盡委屈找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進何時該放棄連擁抱都沒有勇氣..

只能陪你到這裡畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情還不到愛情遠方就要下雨的風景

到底該不該哭泣想太多是我還是你我很不服氣
也開始懷疑眼前的人是不是同一個真實的你

曖昧讓人受盡委屈找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進何時該放棄連擁抱都沒有勇氣

曖昧讓人變得貪心直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你寫不出結局放遺憾的美麗停在這裡

happy cny

2011-02-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

silly me
how stupid can i be
when things go wrong
and the impossibilities crash you inside
hope always whispers to you one more time
and you always end up crying crying crying
and crying

i'll bring carlmann back. i promise.

you, me, him

2011-01-31T17:01:00.001+08:00

Karma bit me back. (:

I actually expected something from him
I actually wished that he'd say something else
But hearing those words face to face
Hurt more than having a knife stabbed right through my heart.
Knowing that he was determined
Knowing that i had the rights to voice my own opinions
I still chose to remain silence and respected his choice.
I never thought that it would hurt
I never thought that it was deep enough to kill me
I never thought that I could feel the pain deep inside
I thought I'd feel relieved as I'd have one less issue to face
But tears still came down
My heart ached
I couldn't breathe
I could barely think
And all I could do was to annoy him
and pretend that nothing happened
Things would be so much more simpler if I was single
~~Maybe it would have worked out~~
~~Maybe what i wished for would have come true~~

If I could go back in time, I would make sure none of this had happened... I really would...

~~I miss that night~~
~~by the beach~~
~~only the two of us~~
~~you and your beer~~
~~me and my slippers~~
~~smiling and laughing all the way~~
~~making little wishes~~
~~I miss that night~~
~~when i was all drunk~~
~~you held me close~~
~~you took care of me~~
~~you didnt care if i was all dirty~~
~~I miss that evening~~
~~when we were simply small talking~~
~~making marshmallows~~
~~eating mushrooms~~
~~And I still remember~~
~~I was in your car~~
~~and you made me laughed like mad~~
~~you always called me crazy~~
~~and i always called you ugly~~

Guilt + broken heart = swollen eyes.

i betrayed phin jeck

2011-01-29T18:24:00.002+08:00

I broke his heart.

I betrayed his trust

and abused the freedom he gave me.

I don't beg for forgiveness

because I can't even forgive myself.

I became the type of girl I always hated.

I fell in love with someone else

and I know I don't deserve such a great bf.

I'm sorry. And I know saying sorry doesn't mend anything.

I should have never tried saving the trouble. Maybe, things won't end up this way.

I feel so guilty that I can't forgive myself.

But what's done has been done, what can I do now?

great day, or doomsday?

2011-01-24T20:34:00.001+08:00

As I promised yesterday. (: I don't know if I'm rubbing in or not. But if I do sound like it, please forgive me as I don't mean to offend anyone.

(I highly recommend you not to read this if it's your doomsday)

I really didn't expect to get what I got. I had nightmares the night before. Woke up constantly and felt so horrible. I reached the library before 7.30am just to check my results. I thought the results were coming out at 7am but it came out at 8am in stead. I constantly refreshed the page so that i could get over it, suck it up if I didn't get what I wanted.

I almost cried because I was so nervous and I kept failing to load the page. Right after chongyee checked his, mine was the next. I got it right after the 1st time he typed in my username and password. When i saw it, I screamed and hugged those who were close to me.

Thank you God, thank you so so much. My hard work was finally paid off. Thank you.

--------------------------------------------------

I pray for the broken-hearted,
I pray for the life not started.
I pray for all the ones not breathing,
I pray for all the souls in need.
But i know there's sunshine behind that rain,
I know there's good times behind that pain.

I pray- Justin Bieber

Please do not make a choice that will take your choices out of your hands. (:

beautifool love

2011-01-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

Went for some free screening yesterday. SOMEONE told me it was the movie "homecoming" so I was quite excited about it. And when we reached there, it was "Beautifool love" which was produced a year ago and didn't get to be on cinema.

Oh well, it was free so I couldn't complain much. And also, I saw one of the actors who was quite hot.
And we each got a photo. :D

I don't really fancy the movie. It confused me quite often. But it still managed to make me cry wtf.

This is mine!!!

The other one which was a correspond of this photo

was taken by that someone.

I got two photos!!

This is stephy LOL.

The special guest.

(stephy's a human by the way)

She even signed on it for me.

Later on that night, I went for the movie "Great Day" with my family. I absolutely love this movie so so so much. It's so touching and yet it's not saddening. Before the movie started, I went around shopping with mummy. I finally have dresses in my closet. I even got myself Bikini!!!

Hor hor, huge accomplishment!!

x]

I have a super lame joke that doesn't make sense at all.

Why is a calculator delicious?

It's a pie.

This was by chongyee.

I made one myself after him telling me several ones, still about the calculator.

I really need to have some brain check-up. I laugh at the strangest things.

Inside joke: Why does siongren likes his calculator so much??

Pathetically, chongyee laughed at this one LOL.

I tidied my room today and I found my Hello Kitty. :D

I still have several pairs of them.

*insert hearts*

Tomorrow's the judgement day. ): I am so nervous. Oh my God, I feel sick.

I finally took the time to clean my room and closet today! I just realised I have plenty of clothes for college but very little for outings. =| I have more long sleeved shirts than short sleeved ones =.= I have no idea how that happened.

If I get what I want, I'll post a picture of myself tomorrow. If I don't, you'll see me crying non-stop in college.

super seniors jeng jeng jeng

2011-01-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

So annoyed. Zzzz. Had been trying to upload photos for hours but kept failing. Eeeeeee, stupid blogger D<

My tummy feels sick when I think about my results. ): I'm so scared I won't get what I want and what I need to further my studies.

*prays*

*prays harder*

*prays even harder*

rainbow!!

2011-01-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

Bought some nail polish today :D

I wonder if their nail polish is good.

rainbow colours!!!!

I'm applying nail polish now so no photos for it yet. :P

The reason why i like studying in TCSJ so so much.

Always alway always get free stuffs.

ESPECIALLY THIS TIME.

Tomorrow's physics test. D:

I'm dying.

sentimental?

2011-01-19T08:45:00.000+08:00

Reached college around 7.15am. Went to class and was shocked that noone was there. Called class rep and realised class is starting at 9am today. Zzzz.

So here I am, freezing in the library.

I wonder what a person is thinking when he still remembers the day he meant the whole world to you and the day when he broke your heart into pieces. It really gets me wonder how he actually feels inside. Proud? or still lingers onto what he had in the past? or regret?

Self reminder: Being emotional in the morning is a no-no.

Crap, chemistry homework.

Understanding, caring, thoughtful, forgiving, open-minded,

he has all I want,

I wonder what it is that fears me inside...

爱的飞行日记

2011-01-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

When you are alone and you have nothing to do, you usually end up doing things you don't normally do.

Yes, I read this.

And yeapp, this was the book Mr. Agas introduced to us.

And I even studied my maths.

See Ms Chandra,

I'm actually a very good girl.

It's your maths rep.'s fault that

I'm always distracted.

And worse, you start taking pictures of self when you see there's nobody around.

Hopefully noone saw me taking photos of myself.

._.

Falling asleep...

zzzzz

It sucks when you have a huge pimple on your nose and meet new friends. Urgh.

It sucks even more when you walk like so cool like that, then you trip, and you hear laughters from far.

URGH. The embarrassment.

But yet! There's something worth celebrating today though I had a super embarrassing moment.

Happy Birthday honey!!

Though I'm not able to attend your concert this year

or be by your side to celebrate your birthday,

I still love you very much

from the bottom of my heart.

p/s: I still wish jay+jolin works out. ):

And please go visit melissa's blog. I've officially become an imposter of Lady Gaga. :D You're just jealous that I can be so awesome all the time, don't you. :P

Chongyee and mel, I want go sing k!!!!! D:

呼吸著一種孤獨的味道
心跳在你沉默以後慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑　反正你看不到
我要的幸福　遺落在你懷抱
當愛失了焦　那些最初的美好
早被你擱在一角
街上擁擠人潮　走著看著都是催眠符號
記憶停不了　穿過讀你的心跳
穿過想你的味道　我只想不被打擾
假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒

。。。。。。

i look like a ginseng!

2011-01-17T21:39:00.003+08:00

My interview was at the Traders Hotel which was just right beside KLCC. I was depressed after my interview. I thought I screwed up or something. So, I went for a little shopping at Suria KLCC to make myself happier. And I got myself....

WHAT IS IT???

SUNNIES!

I like like like like like like like!

I feel like a professional model hor hor!

I look damn sexy LOL.

Gorgeous shades to cover terrible eyebags.

I feel so bimbo-ish.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Syok sendiri number 1.

Syok sendiri number 2.

Teeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I like it so much that

my mood got enlightened straight away.

I like this photo so so much.

I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT LIKE.

I went for IMU open day the other day with chongyee. Found out that my BMI was 18.1 which was below average. And somehow I have 24% fats in my body which was within the normal range. LOL.

"You're a skinny ball of fats!!!"
-chongyee

Ahhh, I like that nickname. :P

judgement day

2011-01-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's my interview and I feel nervous already.

D: God bless me. Please let me pass my interview.

alfred, teddy and hubby

2011-01-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

We celebrated Melissa's birthday today at noodle station during lunch. Later on after class, we brought her to Neway for a surprise.

The surprise failed pathetically because chongyee had problems understanding the plan. =.= Oh well, we had a great time screaming, shouting, singing, jumping and dancing.

I forgot to bring my camera today though. D: I planned to have thousands of camwhore photos with the birthday girl 1 lor.

Since I couldn't camwhore with her, I shall camwhore with my hubby, teddy and alfred. Teeheee!

Teddy, Hubby, Alfred

Teeheee!

Alfred is my 1st teddy bear!

I got it from Arthur and Leonard for my 15th Birthday,

That's my hubby acting cool.

EPIC FAIL.

Make him look damn cute in stead.

Heheh.

My hubby and I!!!

So matching right?

Hur hur!

My hubby trying on my bunny ears with the lights on!

EMO!

Cheh wahh.

My hubby loves to pose so much.

Bunny ears without lights on!

Heheheheheheh!

I made my hubby blush!

This is Teddy munching on a cupcake!!!

Teddy - From Qinxian and Kiyip

Cupcake - From Xuan

I promise I will study chemistry tonight before I sleep.

I PROMISE.

half a year left...

2011-01-09T00:39:00.004+08:00

I just came back from langkawi. ): I miss the trip so much that I felt miserable when I woke up today and realised I was in my own room. I feel so lifeless watching the tv in stead of walking by the beach under the sun. 3 days 2 nights was too short. We should have stayed there 1 more night and toured around the main island and maybe, get wasted again LOL.

1st day

Our flight was at 2.05pm and we met up around 11.30am. Had some confusion with checking-in but it was alright in the end. Wasn't in the mood in the 1st place but once we reached back, I felt the excitement flowing in but still wasn't enough to get all hyped up.

Our lunch at LCCT.

The only photo I took with my camera. XD

Almost everyone brought their camera so I thought mine

was unnecessary.

Just arrived in langkawi.

We rented two vans. The 1 I was on went to the hotel 1st to check in and the other went to the jetty to fetch jecksin. As we reached there 1st and got abit impatient of waiting, we went to check out the beach 1st. Hated the hotel room but loved it for it's super near to the beach.

I love the beach.

Went to see the eagle statue and dinner. After that, we went and shopped for some beers and Chiva's.

That's chongyee posing again.

Our table, waiting for dinner.

We went to the beach that night and had some alcohols. For the 1st time in my whole life, I tasted Chiva's and got drunk after 2 cups of mixed Chiva's and coke.

-_______- Was so hyped up that I threw sand around and giggled non-stop and kept falling down. Chongyee was my biggest victim among all. x] I ended up getting carried back to the room and they had to clean up my vomit.

This is me before drunk.

A failed jump photo for zanny and I.

Starting to get hyped up.

Still hyped up.

Me drunk, running around giggling.

Eva at the side, giggling at her own drink.

Me fell on the sand giggling.

John drunk, building a sand castle higher and higher.

John drunk,

collapsed behind my ass.

2nd day
We went for island hopping! Surpringsly I didn't have any hangover syndrome. Janice and I went for boat paddling. We chose the 1 with solar engine. DAMN CON MONEY I TELL YOU. WE HAD TO PADDLE OURSELVES IN STEAD if not the boat wouldn't move.

Us waiting for the 2nd boat for island hopping.

Hahahahahaha.

ken, mel, me and chongyee on the boat,

that's chongyee soaking wet.

Smoking hot girls!

We went to this beach and had some fun. We had some sand castle competition. We even attacked each other's castles LOL. Back to the beach near our hotel, chongyee, jackson, zanny, melissa, the bear, puva, john, lisha and I went for some water sports. 1st, banana boat, then jet ski.

Sexy girls + beautiful beach

Chongyee, me, mel, john

I LOVE JET SKI, especially when I did some sudden extreme turn that almost got mel and I down the water.

At night, went to shop for a while then went to the beach again. This time, they banned me from drinking. D: We went to some club, free entrance, named babylon. They played some lousy songs that couldn't get us hyped up at all. Danced a little, then went back to the beach and got amazed by some sparkling blue sand by the beach.

At the lousy club.

3rd day
Went to the waterfall and had lots of photos. I fell when stepped on a slippery stone. D: my new levi's shirt got dirtied!!!

Stunning girls!

The 4 of us!

Mel was somewhere else D:

I fell after this photo was taken wtf.

LOOK AT THAT FREAKY WHITE HUGE THING.

ROTFL.

This was taken when we arrived at

Langkawi Airport.

LOL.

Almost missed our flight. =| On the plane, I suddenly felt like I was having some hangover syndrome. == Yes, after 1 day only the syndrome came.

I took the photos from facebook by the way, from mel's, john's, zhenying's, eelynn's and shumei's. An awesome trip! Thanks to chongyee the organiser!

Half a year left for us to stay together. ): I feel miserable to even think about what would happen to us after college.

teehee

2011-01-04T21:06:00.002+08:00

Hello. :D I decided to blog again because I felt like I lost a part of me when I decided to dump this blog. ):

It's the 4th day of 2011 and I almost lost my life today. I was driving relatively fast and it was rainning. Suddenly I lost control of my car and braking didn't seem to work at all. My car skidded on the slippery road. I almost hit a tree and I turned my car right in time and it continued on a different lane. Thank God there wasn't any any car. I would have got myself killed. =| My sister was so shocked that she couldn't make a sound. Yes, she was in the car as well.

Because of what happened I don't feel as excited for tomorrow's class trip.

And for some reasons, lizards are attracted to my car. D< There was a lizard on the driver's window when I was driving the other day. It freaked me out. THAT LIZARD HAD POLKA DOTS ON ITS BODY. It was staring at me all way through and I had to fight back my tears to complete my journey.

T.T

Today, right after the incident, I found a dead lizard in my car. =.= Killed by whoever closed the door without noticing it.

Ew, I can still taste the coughing syrup on my toungue. D: